Where/Who Am I?

So for those three or four people who actually read my blog, here is an update! :) I know that in my last blog, I had mentioned that I started my low iodine diet and I was feeling pretty good. Well, that has taken a DRASTIC turn, I feel absolutely AWFUL! I never realized how little there was to eat on this diet and how much I was going to have to cook! It is exhausting just thinking about what I am going to eat. If I never eat another peach again, it'll be too soon!lol

I have never quite been in this place before and so I am not sure how to handle it. I am sooooo tired that all I want to do is lay in bed, not to mention that I am really depressed. I guess that you could say that I am feeling sorry for myself right now, but I also can't seem to control it. I was excited at the beginning of starting my diet because I figured that it was going to be pretty easy and I would lose some lbs! Little did I know, that because I am not on my medication, that I suffer all of the symptoms of Hypothyroidism: depression, fatigue, constipation, weight gain, etc...... that would be a check, check, check and check. I was so looking forward to snacking on Superbowl Sunday, but I guess that'll have to wait til next year! I only have two more days left and let me tell you, they will be the longest two days of my life! I am looking forward to getting back on my medication and being happy, energetic, and hopefully those lbs will fall off (?) but most of all looking forward to getting back to be a normal wife and mother. I just want to carry my kids up the stairs without having to stop every few steps because I am so tired. Or just to be able to pick up Alex when he needs some lovin without having to say, "mommy can't lift you because I don't have the strength."

Thankfully, I have been blessed with such an amazing support system. I don't know what I would do without my wonderful husband. He has had to do it all for the last week and a half. I bet he never thought he'd be Mr. Mom/Betty Crocker/Therapist/School Bus Driver! He has been my rock and I love him more than ever. So, thank you to the world's best father and husband. I love you.

My Mom has also been a huge help. She has been here over the weekend to help out and she is a huge help with the boys. They love to play with her and so when she is here, Alex doesn't seem to worry so much. Roland's Mom will be coming next week while I am away, (at the "Radiance Spa"), to help out. I am very lucky to have such a great support system. Well, I feel like I have been rambling on and being a boob, so that's it!

The Final Countdown........

Well the countdown has begun, I have officially started my "low iodine diet". I now have 12 days until I become radioactive, not many of you can say that! I never knew how much food contains "sea salt" which I definitely cannot eat. What I wouldn't give for a piece of cheese or chocolate right now. I told Roland that if I weren't under Dr.'s orders that I would've shoved those down my throat long ago. I am feeling very nervous about taking the radioactive Iodine, so if anyone has any toughts or tips for me, please let me know.

Thankfully, I have an amazing support system. Roland has just been terrific. He lets me sleep in in the morning, one of the side effects of being off medication is that I am feeling as though I haven't slept in 3 days. I am constantly tired and my mood swings are like a ride at Lagoon. In fact, it's almost like when I was pregnant!LOL.

Also, if anyone has any advice on how to explain to a 4 yr old that you have to be gone for a week but you'll only be 20 minutes away, please HELP! I think that has been the hardest thing, is trying to figure out what to tell Alex. Luckily, Lincoln is too young to know time yet, so I could be gone 2 wks and he'd think I just ran to the store. The one good thing about this "low iodine diet" is that I actually feel good, besides the tiredness and mood swings. It just goes to show that what we put in our bodies really affects how we feel. With that said, as soon as this is over, I am going to Hires and getting a Big H with fries and a shake!!!